ok. Time really flies.
i just realized that my last post was two years ago...
Well, i guess no one will look at this blog anymore...
So i'll just rant here...
kinda emo lately.
thinking about the choices and experiences in my life so far.

what if i went to pri sch A (which is more reputable) instead of pri sch B?
would i have ended up in a better secondary school?

what if i had chosen another subject combination in sec 3 instead of triple science?
would i have done better in O levels and went into a better JC?

what if i had tried to appeal to JC A instead of other JCs?
Would i have a better school life in that JC?

what if i had chosen another subject combination in JC?
would i have managed my studies better and meet friends who are of similar personality as me?

I guess these few weeks must be one of the nadirs in my life.
Lately, i seemed to be distancing further from friend A. And i hate this feeling.
She seems to be closer to another friend. Call me possessive.
But i realised i am one who treasures and needs friends a lot.
There are a few times i wanted to contact her and call her out.
But i can't seem to get the courage to do so.
thought of a few opportunities, but really didn't have the courage...
this is bad. i really don't want to lose this friendship.
we used to be really close friends. this sudden distancing is making me uncomfortable.
Why?!? Why is this happening to me?
Furthermore, i'm a shy person in nature... this makes things worse.

Hope things will get better soon...
really hate this awkwardness...