Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Somehow i'm feeling really tired inside.
It's like all my troubles and stuff are bottled inside me.
And there's this cork at the mouth of the bottle.
Which prevents the troubles and worries to leave.
I can't remove this cork.
It's too tight.
Who can do me a favour and
remove this cork?
I feel like everything's suppressed within me.
All the troubles, worries and stuff.
I can't seem to let them go.
It seems to be the "doings" of the cork.
Can someone just help me remove this barrier?
During contact time,
the teacher told us not to be sad or depressed if
we didn't get the results we want,
esp sciences.
But tell me, who wouldn't be sad if she doesn't do well?
Whatever she said seems to make sense
and comforted us a little.
It's true that we shouldn't be too sad if we didn't do well
and we should work harder after that.
but, some stuff are really too difficult and confusing.
The teacher seems to hint us that we've done
quite badly for our sciences CT.
Oh no.
It'll really be a great blow for us.
For people like us who are sort of
used to getting good grades.
With the sudden drop of grades like,
from A1 to say, C5?
Drop of 4 grades!!!
I'll just cry!
Although the teacher say don't
expect our marks to be like our sec 2 sciences marks
which is like , As?
So we should be mentally prepared
for the "worst".
The teacher said that she knows that
many of us feel like giving up. (How she know?)
And this includes me.
I'm on the verge of giving up.
Sometimes i wonder,
have i made a wrong choice?
Am i suitable to be in 3A1?
I don't think i'm smart nor talented.
So what am i doing in 3A1?
Have i entered into the wrong class?
I'm practically failing my sciences
and screwing up my SPAs.
Do i deserve to be 3A1?
Maybe i will be better off in combined sciences classes?
I feel stressed up in here.
Stressed up to the extent that i
barely can breathe.
I need CPR.
But i shall pull myself together.
I shall work harder for the next term.
Jia you! :)
10:43 PM
