Why? Why is this happening?
I just went through the horrible ordeal 2 years ago...
and i'm about to experience it again in 2 or 3 years later...
and it'll be even worse. even more pain.

Why?
I'm so afraid.
I don't want to go through it again.
NO!!! NO!!! NO!!!
What's the problem with me?
Why is it like that?

I'm really really scared.
It's more serious.
I don't want to go through it.
This is so scary.
I really hope it isn't true.
But this is reality.

~Afraid and scared...