SPORTS DAY TODAY!!!

Had fun.
1st time helping out.
My duty was at the refreshment.
But nothing much.
So went to help out at the Milo van.
ohohohohohoh.
Speaking about milo,
let me tell u a narrative story.
The title is a day of a life of a milo mixture.
Is it mixture? Ai ya. Something like that lah.
Morning for breakfast,
i drank warm milo.
Then at the stadium i drank room teperature milo.
For lunch, i drank ice milo.
Haha.

The job at the milo van is fun. :)
i had to direct ppl.
Shouted until i think i'm losing my voice.
And i got sun burned.
Damn tired now. =.=

I'm so happy.
Cos LEE finally won something.
And LEE is NOT the last. :)
Came in 2nd! :)
Together with Archer.
Chew got 1st. Again.

After sports day,
we went for prac.
The score is changed again.
But we learnt it quite fast.
The previous version is so much nicer.
The new version is quite boring with
no "fireworks" to brighten up the sky.
Haha. That's for bass. Haha.

Ok. That's all for now.
I'll really very tired.
Shall go sleep now.
Good night! :)

I'M MAKING THIS VERY CLEAR!
I DON'T HAVE A BOYFRIEND!!!
EVERYBODY TAKE NOTE AH.

This is a big prob.
That day during farewell,
i was talking to my friend(gal),
then a lot of ppl say i'm talking to
boyfriend, cos i talk for damn long.
Tell them how many times already.
Ai yo.

Then after that,
yesterday i was talking to my bro
on the phone. Also talk for quite long,
then a friend asked me,
talking to ur boyfriend ah?
OMG. I don't have boyfriend.
Only 1 bro, can?

Please lah.
I never really interacted
with guys in my life.
Besides tuition.
I don't even talk to them lah, pls.

Speaking about guys,
on wed, i was playing
badminton with my bro
after i came back frm prac.
At the void deck.

Then my neighbour came down.
A pri sch guy and his cuz who is in sec sch.
Then we started playing duo.
After awhile, the younger kids pulled out.
They went aside and chatted about DM.
Leaving me to play with that guy!
Stupid. I felt so stuppid.
I never played badminton with guys
beside my bro before. OMG.
The feeling is damn odd. Haha.
Anyways, i juz continued playing with him
until the kids joined in...

Feeling stupid...
Mini-SYF is tomorrow.
I think the seniors will come.
Haha.
Spending the whole day in sch.

Although it's the March holidays,
i dun even think it's holiday.
I have something on every single day.
What kind of holiday is this man???
i still need to find time to do maths paper 1
which requires 3/2h straight to do.
But everyday by the time i reach home,
it's super late.
And chem project is another headache.
PW another one...
ARGH!!!

The march holidays is...
to rephrase it,
Term1 Week 11!!!

heys,

i'm back.
Sec 4 farewell today.
Got soaked to the skin.
Thanks to some people who
splashed water at me.
Thanks man.
But i had fun overall. :)

This march holiday is like
not even holiday.
Every single day got something on.
Don't even have time to
do PW and chem project.
Die lah.
School repoen,
never do hw
teacher will just come after us.
Got SYF pracs wat.
Who so free do holiday hw
everyday, ppl want to relax
also cannot.
Sighs...
I guess we just have to
juggle our time
between cca and homework
and stuff.

I just read my cuz's blog.
She said she have to write
a compo titled, the worst day of my life.
I guess, if i'm writing the compo
as a diary entry,
i'll just cry as i'm writing it.
I'll write about my biggest failures
in my life.
The day i received my results
and my feelings.
Sad lah.

Oh well,
i guess i just have to
learn how to let go,
and move on.
Stop harping on the past,
let go and move on bravely.
Think of the bright side of life! :)
Sadly, there's no bright side of this.
(That's to me...)

I feel like a failure.
What's with the sudden drop of grades?
i cannot take it.

I think i've let my parents down.
I don't know how to face them.
With my grades.
How should i react when i see them?
Smile and greet them?
Sulk and moan gd morning?
Or hide in my room?

I think i'll just hide in my room.
Crying.
They put so much hope on me.
Wishing that i do really well in my studies.
They bought me so many things to encourage me.
A study table, a cupboard to store my books,
a new phone, etc.
They bought so many books to help me.
Guide books, assessment books,
o level books, etc.
And yet.
AND YET!!!
I let them down with my v. poor grades.
How can i do this?

This is not right.
I should be doing quite well in my studies.
Why is there a sudden drop of grades?
Huge drop?
I can't seem to face the reality.
I was wishing that all these is a nightmare.
It can't be true.
I can't be doing badly.
I must meet my parents expectations.

I think getting a scholarship is a dream that
will never come true.
There's no more hope.
I feel like giving up.
I feel suppressed.
Scholarship is what my parents
hope i'll get.
I'm so sorry,
mummy and daddy.
But i'm getting stupider and
can't fulfil that wish of yours.
Scholarship seems to be getting further and further,
out of my reach.

I don't even have hope
of getting the merit bursary this year.
No hope.
It's all over.
I'm a failure.
There's nothing i can do.
My intelligence stopped here.
What can i do?

I feel like i'm losing evrything.
From my time to my As.
Almost everything.
Oh man.
Is everything really gonna end here?

Crying myself to sleep...