Got back report book today.
I was damn scared. Scared that i won't get into 3A1.
My mum wants me to go to 3A1. High expectations.
I was freaking out.
Iris was before me. When she came back, she was crying.
We were like going to see our fate.
When i saw iris crying, i was like, oh no.
Then, i went to teacher there gingerly.
She started smiling at me and i was like, huh?

Then she said that i got into 3A1, i was damn happy.
Wanted to jump with joy but i controlled.
Then she said she was happy with my marks and
hope that i would do well next year for o levels and the yr after.
Then she said as her good friend, i should go encourage iris.
So i went back to console iris.
She's damn sad. She was crying like dunno what.
Then ruby started crying.
I felt odd. The only one not crying.
Then ruby went out to meet her fate.
And she too, came back crying.

After long long while, all of them stopped crying.
But, i, however, started crying.
Ironic huh? Haha.
I was crying cos my close friends and even my dear neighbour,
all go different classes.
I'm the only one who's going to 3A1.
But i can't possibly give up my chance to go to 3A1
juz cos of my friends, can't i? My mum will kill me.
I was crying cos i'm afraid that i cannot cope in 3A1.

Now that i got into 3A1,
My mum wants me to go to VJC.
Juz now, she told me, she wants me to go to NJC.
Prestigious schools.
Sighs. See what i mean by high expectations?

Now that we're all separated,
we're all sad.
bi jing we spent much time together.
Remember those times we had together.
Those fun moments.
Never forget those moments.
We'll still be together.
In some classes.
English, Maths, HCL and even camp.
We must keep in touch, ok?

Ok. I'm crying again.
Tissue paper?
OK. I gtg.
Writing farewell letters.
Ok. I know i'm slow.
But better late than never, right?
Bye.
Those are tears of joy and sorrow...

"Failure today is not failure for life."

This is what mrs jacob said this morning during assembly.
I find it quite meaningful.
Thinking about it, although i've failed my theory last year,
but a failure that time is not failure for life.
So, i must study real hard and try my best to pass this time.
This quote shall be my source of motivation from today onwards.

2 more days... to the results. Really hope that i can into my desired class.
Oh. And guess what? I got in for peer lites! Yay!
I'm damn surprised lah. Got shortlisted. Now on probation.
Then got camp from 7 to 8 Nov. Camp in sch.
Hope i can pass the probation.

And mr ng asked the ppl taking o levels music to fill in some form.
Then there's this part, Class in 2009. We're like huh? Our dream class? Haha.
And another part, why you want to take up o levels music? What kind of question is that?
Haha.

Then mr ng said that tomoro got music test. Grade 5 standard. Then someone said that she took her grade 5 theory exam 1 year ago. Another said she took it 2 years ago. Then i was like, I took it 3 years ago! Haha.

ok. gtg now. got to study theory and have to help ruby in some stuff... Bye.

Heys,

I'm back. After doing 2 theory practices today. Very hardworking. Haha.
Found out my violin results today.
Iris, zi shan and i went to find mr ng after sch today.
Then they refused to call him through the phone.
Oh. And Iris randomly said"I saw something." on our way to the staff room.
Ok. This joke is only understood by the 3 of us.
Shan't say much about it.

Anyways, back to the process of getting our results,
An the end, I called mr Ng and he was like, cannot tell lah.
Then we or rather, me, pleaded him.
Then he relented.
He came out and start flipping throug the results.
I'm so afraid that i'll fail. But guess what?
I passed! I actually passed! Yay!
But it's 5 marks shy of the merit marks. Sad.
I was damn sad that i didn't score a merit.
Sighs... Oh well... I just got to accept it. Can't do much.

Anyways, i've got a message for Sec 2 aesthetic track gals. haha.

Harp ppl: Congrats! All of you passed with distinction! Well done!
Violin ppl: All of us passed! We actually passed! So we can go eat Ding Tai Feng! Yay! Congrats to those who scored a merit. Those who passed, but not a merit, like me, we have done well too, just not as well as those who scored merit. Haha. But, all in all, we PASSED! Haha.

Ok. End of message. Got to go. Getting back EOY results tomorrow. Can I not go to school???

I may seem to have recovered from the trauma.
But i have not.
My results, failing the grade 7 theory paper.
This scene kept repeating in my mind.
I can't forget about it.
It's my first time failing a theory paper.
I may seem oblivious and forgot about the incident,
But it's always in my mind.

I have to pass my grade 8 theory.
I must.
I have to.
Problem is,
I don't have much confidence.
Not after failing my grade 7.
I'm really scared that i'll fail my grade 8.
I cannot afford to fail.
My teachers, parents and friends have high hopes on me.
I can't afford to fail.
I really can't.

Oh no.
What should I do?
I've really tried my best.
I practiced a lot.
But I still don't have much confidence that I'll pass.
How?

I really must pass.
It's another 27 more days.
1 November.
I have to go to the battlefield.
Will I survive through this fight?
Will I succeed?
Or will I just be trampled on?
Be defeated?
I dunno.
Keeping my fingers cross...

Heys,

EOYs are finally over! Yay! XD
I think i won't do well for history and physics.
Especially history. And history results will pull everything down... Seriously down...
Die. Whatever lah. Now, i'll just play and play and play. Haha...
And do some theory, start preparing for theory exam.

Today's children day. Very happy. Cause i ate a lot of things that i have not eaten for many many months. Haha. Ate fish and chips(the whole plate, I never ate one whole plate by myself before) and ice cream at Swensens. Then wnet shopping with my mum. Bought a lot of hello kitty and winnie the pooh stuff. Haha. Then went home early cos i have to practice the piano (after not practicing it for 1 whole week), do theory practices and my bro need to study for his exams. Haha.

Ok. Gotta go now. Tomorrow's marking day then actually don't need to go to school. But have CCA, so have to go... So i have to go sleep now. Bye. :)