I need a hug. Seriously, i need one. A lot of things have happened these days. Depressed, joyful, ecstatic, confused, urge, tired, etc. Sometimes i wonder why on earth am i on earth? What is the purpose of me being on earth. Not that i have done anything to make an impact on someone else's life. Not like I am going to change the world or do something really that great.

I can't seem to do well in anything. Academic, music, all either just pass or pass the merit a little. Sometimes i really wish that i can succeed and do very well in something. I don't seem to be talented although i am in the first class.

Everyday is like a train rushing to some other places. Always doing stuff. Do homework, revise my work, practice the piano or the violin, cca, enrichment classes, tuition. Not enough time to do what i like or even sleep. I know, we have to manage our own time. But it seems that everytime i arrange my time, it's always for studying or playing the piano. Sighs... Can't i have 1 day, just 1 day for me to do whatever i want?

Sometimes, i feel so tired of everything that i just want to drop off dead, don't want to live anymore. 死掉算了。I just want to drop everything i'm doing and all my worries and go to sleep. When would that day come? Someone hug me before i drop off...