Flower Enchantment

2010-01-03T11:42:00.002+08:00

It's 2010. Wow.
While everyone else welcomes the new year happily and excitedly,
watching the fireworks which sparks hope in their hearts for a better year,
I stood at my window, watching the fireworks, feeling stressed.
The fireworks seem to be sparking more fear and stress into me as
the major exams starts to loom nearer.

Time really flies.
Three moments ago, I just completed PSLE and entered the sch happily.
Two moments ago, I was sitting for the streaming exams to put us in sec 3 classes.
One moment ago, I was freaking out for exams and o level chi and stuff.
And FLASH!
Here it comes. The moment.
In another split sec, I'll find myself in the hall, taking the major exam.
It really freaks me out. Time realy passes so fast.

Three moments ago, I was having an audition to get into the CCA i look forward to join.
Two moments ago, I polished my skills through many songs and had many performances.
One moment ago, I took part in SYF with my CCA-mates, and cried with them over the results.
And FLASH!
A split sec ago, I started leading the ensemble.
Cautious in every step, oping not to make any mistake.
In another split sec, I'll be auditioning the younger juniors, and recruiting them into the ensemble. Hoping that they will do well in the ensemble.
In another moments time, it'll be time for me to retire and pass the baton to the next batch. Even if I could not bear to leave, I have to hand over the responsibilities and hope that they will bring the ensemble to greater heights.

Time really flies.
Life is like a roller coaster ride.
There are ups and downs,
accelerations and deccelearations.
It starts slow at the beginning.
When we were young, time seems to pass so slowly.
After kindergarten lessons, we'll just watch sesame street or smth and play around while the clock ticks away. Or we'll even go to sleep just to "make" time pass faster! LOL.
In pri sch, as exams starts to appear in our life and CCAs start to take our afternoons,
time seems to pass slightly faster. Then here comes PSLE, instensive revision everyday seem to be draining us out and time passes even faster.
In sec sch, time slows down a little in sec 1 as we had "honeymoon" period,
trying to adapt into the new sch. As we go on to sec 2 and even upper sec,
time starts to fly, seeming to accelerate everyday.
Everyday passes so quickly. Esp sch days. Typical sch day.
Wake up early in the morning. Go to sch. Have lessons.
Lunch. CCA. Tuition. Go home. Do homework. Revise a little. Sleep.
and the cycle repeats. See how fast time goes by.
But pls do not accelerate too much.
I can't take roller coaster rides. I'll just puke.

It seems that time is really moving so fast.
So fast that i almost can't catch up.
Everyday is hectic. Even during sch holidays. (It ends today... Sobs...)
Handling sch work. Tuition stuff. Leadership roles.
Everything's moving really fast.
And it seems like it'll never end.
I'm really out of breath. Can i just stop for a while to catch my breath?
Pls wait for me. Let me catch my breath so i can go even further.

The battle is about to begin.
But i don't think i'm ready to go for it.
I didn't even had a chance to catch my breath or recharge during the hols.
Sighs... Ok.
I'll just work really hard for this moments i have on hand.
Hopefully, I won't freak out as much on the day of the exams itself...
I can do it! I hope...

2009-12-06T22:27:00.010+08:00

Hey.

I'm back.

Life has been quite "exciting" this few days.

Helped friends for competition and they got into the finals.

Hope they'll work hard and do the sch proud. :)

Busy preparing for CCA fair and post- Sec 4 farewell stuff.

Rushing hols homework too.

To think of it,

it seems like there won't be any holiday for me this year.

Blame it on my busy schedule.

Maths project. CCA meetings, practices and performance.

Peer lite camp. O level. Sec 4 farewell.

Wow. I just realised that i've been really busy for the past one month.

Haha. Hardly have time to do hw... how to go for holiday? haha.

Envy those ppl who can go overseas.

1 year ago,

i also went overseas, to HK! :)

i promised to upload pics but i didn't.

Haha. I'm gonna post a few today then...

in remembrance of my last holiday...

haha. :)

At The Peak. Bird eye's view!!!

Snoopy world!

I like this one. the sign is so cute. refer to theng hiang lah, the "children" haha.

Beautiful flowers! :D

Balloons!!! Taken at disneyland. I want all those balloons!!!

Princess castle! :)

Okay. That's all the pics for now.

Will put up more the next time...

Bye...

2009-11-23T22:46:00.000+08:00

Why? Why is this happening?
I just went through the horrible ordeal 2 years ago...
and i'm about to experience it again in 2 or 3 years later...
and it'll be even worse. even more pain.

Why?
I'm so afraid.
I don't want to go through it again.
NO!!! NO!!! NO!!!
What's the problem with me?
Why is it like that?

I'm really really scared.
It's more serious.
I don't want to go through it.
This is so scary.
I really hope it isn't true.
But this is reality.

~Afraid and scared...

2009-11-16T22:45:00.002+08:00

I'm back. Again. Haha.
Just suddenly got the urge to blog.

Yesterday, my mum asked me if i want to carry on,
taking diploma for piano.
I was like, huh?
I have to take if i want to carry on taking O level music.

Speaking about that,
I'm not sure if i should carry on taking O level music.
It's like, i barely passed the 1st and 2nd term,
and even failed the 3rd term! Argh!
EOY music is still ok.
I was quite shocked when i saw the results.
Was like, is this really my result.
I think i just happen to get that mark by chance or smth.

I don't really think i'm talented in music.
My mum told me that she heard that
most people will go to NAFA after grade 8.
They'll go through an audition and if they pass,
they get to learn diploma.
But isn't NAFA for those people who want to
speciallise in music? And love music?
I mean, i love music.
But i don't think i'm talented enough to get in.
I told my mum,
i would most probably not pass the audition if i go for it.
She told me not to think so lowly of myself.
But i seriously think that i'm not good
and not talented in this area.
SO why would i even do well in this area?

I'm really in a dilemma.
Should i continue taking O level music?
Today, tr told us real life stories.
Whereby some students break down just months before Os.
And they can't remember anything even basic concepts!
Mental breakdown!
AH!!! I scared that will happen to me!
Tr say this yr,
a 4A1 girl, who always top maths or smth,
she broke down and couldn't rmb any concepts.
OMG. I hope that won't happen.
It's really bad.

Anyways, back to O level music.
I'm scared that i won't have time to practice the piano.
I'm seriously depending a lot on my practical
cos my theory really sucks.
Esp composing.
The listening part is still ok.
And there's a still a lit. part for music which we haven't learn.
And hello?
I don't take lit! I don't understand lit!!! Oh no!!!
How??? How???
I'm afraid that i cannot cope.
It's an extra subject.
I still have 8 other subjects to cope with.
And other responsibilities to carry.
Eg. Senior peer lite...

WIll i be able to cope well?
Will i do well in the subject?
Should i continue taking the subject?
I'm really lost and confused...

2009-11-08T22:23:00.002+08:00

Back from Peer lite training camp!!! :)
Had fun and i wanna go back.
Didn't want it to end...
Time really flies.
Maybe cos i was doing so many things,
handling so many stuff during the camp that's why it seems to past so fast. Haha.

The camp went quite well i guess.
The juniors were great.
Log stuff were proper and prepared,
except for some hic cups along the way.
Yea. I must be more careful the next year for the refreshers course.
But for now, i must concentrate on my o levels, which is,
omg. The day after tomorrow!!! (sound like the movie... haha...)

Anyway, here's my thoughts and feelings after the camp.

What I've learnt
- I felt great that we've shown the ropes to the juniors taking over us.
(oh mans... we're old... sad that we're "retiring"... :( sighs...)
- I think i've learnt more leadership skills.
- I think i've also took another step to become a better leader through this camp
as i took up the role as the logistics committee head. Learnt how to coordinate everyone
and stuff...
- I've learnt how to deal with problems i may face in future. Although my dad helped me
solve it this time, I've learnt from the incident.
-How to manage my time. Had to handle all the log stuff (which is quite a lot) and find time to
study for chinese at the same time.
- Keep calm when facing problems. I was freaking out for the T shirts which was quite last
minute.
- Be more "brave" and talk to strangers without appearing to be scared.
( when finding T shirt suppliers...)

What I can improve on
- Be more efficient
- When sending emails to teachers, try not to send too late, like 10plus pm
- Manage my time better
- Leadership skills
- Speaking in front of a crowd
- Communicate more

Yea. That's all I guess.
Wanna sleep now.
Whole day of Chinese tomorrow.
Wish me good luck for O levels...
I hope that i can do well...

2009-10-30T22:52:00.002+08:00

Hey. I'm back. After M-I-A-ing for so long. Haha.
A lot of things are happening recently.
Feeling super tired now, both physically and inside.

Maybe because many things are gonna happen soon.
Handbell performance on 3 Nov, peer lite camp, O levels Chinese, 26 Nov Handbells Christmas performance. Wow. Busy.

Or maybe i've just accepted new roles.
Planning for every single thing and even worrying about it all the time.
Contacting the rest of the team and working together.
Having regular meetings to discuss stuff.

Os are coming and i'm freaking out.
But i can't seem to have enough time to prepare.
CCA the whole week til quite late.
Do Homework to do at night.
Then watch tv for an hour. Sleep super late.
Next day wake up super early.
oh. Speaking about sleeping,
my dad sent me this horoscope thing for 2010.
Haha. The rooster one, which is mine, is shown below...

The Rooster is always popular, extravagant and creative.. They can bebrutally honest and generally like being showered with attention. Theyare wonderfully loyal friends and also give advice freely - whether theyare asked for it or not!Family means the world to the Rooster and they are fiercely loyal to those they care about.Forecast for 2010 The Year of the Tiger will have mixed fortunes for theRooster, but by staying calm, observant and flexible, the Rooster will glide through 2010 coming out much wiser, stronger and with greatsuccess behind him. He will be in much demand for his sage advice andexperience and, at work, this will come to the notice of his employer. Travel features quite strongly with the Rooster seeking out adventure, fun and new places to visit. Aword of caution: all Roosters must ensure that they don't overdo things- exhaustion and a depleted immune system will result if proper restisn't taken. Home life will bring many joys and will be seen as a cosy sanctuary throughout the year.

Interesting Rooster Facts:
Special Flower: AsterBest
Season: Autumn
Horoscope Colors: Orange, Green (omg. of all colours, orange?!?)

Now, in consideration for most of you, dogs, i shall copy paste ur fortune for next year here too. So kind of me. Haha. But pls take note that it's not 100% accurate. (of course... Haha...)

The Dog is wonderfully hard worker, a perfectionist and someone whol oves the small details. He is also a bit anti-social, pessimistic andstubborn. They are one of the most honest and loyal signs of the Chinesezodiac and will always go to bat for a worthy cause. The Dog is a fantastic listener and his advice is usually very intuitive. Forecast for 2010 The Year of the Tiger will be an excellent one for all Dogs with a significant improvement in fortune all year long. They mustleave the past behind, for the Ox year was a challenging one, and look forward with optimism and determination. There will still be challengest his year for the Dog, as for all the signs, and it is important that he talk over any potential problems and worries rather than bottling them up. Socially, this is the Dog's year to shine and many new strong friendships and alliances will be formed. The Year of the Tiger will see increased finances for the Dog with many receiving bonuses or even gifts throughout the year. However, it is important that he takes his time regarding financial matters, checking details and ensuring that he has read all the fine print.

Interesting Dog Facts:
Zodiac Stone: Diamond
Special Flower: Marigold
Season: Autumn
Horoscope Colors: Silver and Red

OKays. That's all for today. Bye.

2009-08-27T23:07:00.000+08:00

today, e maths tr said something that inspired me.
she said that it's ok if u fail for the first 3 terms ( 60%)
work harder for eoys (40%) as it is almost half the whole thing,
it'll pull the whole average up.
So there'll still be possibility that u will pass the subject overall. :)

That means hope in passing the failed subjects.
So, never give up and persevere on,
keep on practicing and finally,
one day, i'll be able to pass!
So don't give up and gambatte!
Work harder! Jia yous!

2009-08-24T22:53:00.000+08:00

i don't know what's happening to me
why is it that others can do it while i can't.
why others can score super high marks in tests
while i could not.
did i not work hard enough?

why others can pass while i can't
am i that hopeless
or am i that stupid.
why can't i do it

i've always been doing fine
for past few years,
why did i start to screw up so much this year?
What on earth happend to me?
Did i become dumber?

Feeling
- stupid
- dumb
- useless/ hopeless

2009-07-26T18:57:00.000+08:00

Had performance today.
At suntec city for heritagefest.
Went to school super early today
and found the handbell room locked.
We tried to break in but to no avail.
Luckily, the uncle came to our rescue! :)
He helped us unlock the door and
we started polishing the bells.

Jeanelle went singing sorry sorry while polishing
and soon after, she and joyce started singing nobody.
Jeanelle singing the korean version and joyce singing the eng version.
Haha. Then we went to have lunch opp sch. :)
Theng Hiang joined us for lunch cos she has nothing better to do. Haha.

Oh. And iris went to suntec to support us! :)
Or should i say, laugh at us. Haha.
Anyways, she gave us starbucks to drink.
Just nice cos i was damn thirsty after screaming and running around. Haha.
And she complained that we had pies to eat
while harp ppl only got gardenia bread to eat the day before,
which is their performance. Haha.

And the stage is quite small so we had to squeeze all the tables.
And to think i'm playing bass for the last 2 songs which
are our SYF songs. and after the songs,
we had to bow. We had too little space to step back.
So tr was like, (to us bass ppl)
eh, don't need to step back to bow ah,
don't commit suicide.
Haha. Damn funny.
And tr kept taking random photos.
Esp our unglams.
Everytime when there's performance,
she'll bring her cam along,
without fail. Haha. Sighs...
SO we have to make a look out regularly.
Haha.

Damn tired when i got home.
SUper tired.
Luckily i finished all my hw yesterday.
Wanted to study a math, chem and ss.
I guess i'll just study a math tonight.
Sighs. Okay. Gotta go. Bye. :)

2009-07-24T22:32:00.000+08:00

Attended a leadership forum yesterday.
Talks conducted by leaders in different areas.
Learnt a lot of stuff about leadership.
Hope i can apply these skills in my leadership role.

And we had dinner after the forum.
Well, i must say that it was the
best dinner i ever had in PL(sec) after 3 yrs.
Haha. Then we sang "light your world".
And this the funnest part!
We had candles and the teachers' had lighted candles.
They walked around to light our candles,
spreading the flame around,
hoping that we will be great leaders of PL.
Wow. So cheem. haha.

Anyways, i was super tired after the whole programme.
And i still needed to do lian bi when i got home.
We tried pleading lao shi to extend deadline but she tried to avoid it.
Haha. I still did it anyways.

Miss my dad. He's overseas.
Coming back soon! :)
Kays. That's all for today. :)

2009-07-17T21:10:00.000+08:00

Changed blogskin.

Today tr didn't come for live lesson.
But i've learnt something during the 2 hours.
this is a scary world.

I used to hear ppl say that this is a dog eat dog world.
And i finally understand the meaning of the phrase these 2 days.
Mostly it's politics.
I've realised that politics is everywhere.
Regardless of the place.
Govt, society, office and guess what, even schs.

In every CCA i guess,
when it comes to selecting the nxt batch of exco.
Suddenly, it seems that there are politics really everywhere.
Office politics and stuff...
Sighs.
I finally realised the cruelty of the world.
(shi jie de can ku)

Everyone is fighting for what thry want.
The highest position, authority and stuff..
And in order to achieve it,
they'll do all means,
by hook or by crook.
Suck up/ curry favour,
attend meetings punctually,
do gd deeds, etc.
In the end,
some will get it while some don't.

These 2 days,
i've also learnt that things
may happen unexpectedly.
You can never predict the future.
It's always a mystery.
What we can do is just do our best,
and look forward to the next day.
Sighs...

Yup. That's all for today.
Damn tired... Not feeling well...

2009-06-20T23:05:00.002+08:00

OMG!!!!!!
Guess what?
My mum found a white hair!
Not on her head, but on mine!
I'm getting old! :(

My mum was looking at my hair and
saying abt how straight my fringe is after rebonding that day.
Then she started complaining how bad
the hairdresser's skill was.
Cut my fringe until so untidy.
Then suddenly, she exclaimed,
"Ai yo, you have white hair ah?!?"

I started screaming like i dunno what.
My mum pulled out that white hair.
And i can't believe my eyes!
it's really a strand of WHITE HAIR!
ARGH!?!

2009-06-20T22:37:00.002+08:00

It's the holidays!
And it doesn't feel like 1 somehow.
Every week, i'll just have something on.
Until this week, wk 3 of the hols,
i'm sort of free.
But still need to do hw...
moutainous pile of hw.
Sighs...

And the hols are coming to an end
with a blink of an eye...
Sighs...
Sad...
I didn't even have a chance to play!
Didn't even have a chance to sleep til
really really late, like 11am?
haha...

Soon, i'll just have to start picking up my books
and bury myself in them again...

For now, i'll just enjoy the rest of my hols
completing hw and projects...
And most imptly,
practice the piano for my upcoming exam
on 10 july.
Hopefully, i'll be able to score a merit this time! :)

2009-05-01T23:19:00.003+08:00

Encouraging statements for our syf reults.

1. We're the winners. Because we compose our own scores, not following the printed scores like the other schools.
2. We started on the songs only 2plus months ago, with the final copy 2weeks ago.
3. We are special cos we have a whistle.

So, in conclusion, we deserve a Gold with Honours! :)

I realise that flowers can cheer one up.
Ms lim gave us, the performers,
a flower and a toberlone each yesterday before our SOP.
She said toberlone contains some chemical
which can cheer us up. Haha.
For me, it not only cheer me up but also fill my growling stomach.
We only had our dinner at 8plus 9pm yesterday.
Damn hungry til can faint.
But i survived cos of the chocolate. Haha.

Then just now i was looking at the flowers ms lim gave
while i was studying geog. And i felt better.
It cheered me a up. :)
Getting a silver is not bad for a 2 months training.
Other schools trained for 11months and got a gold.
And we only trained for 2months!
If we trained longer, we would have gotten a GWH!
haha. So we must do better in the upcoming handbells asian festival.

Silver is not a bad thing after all.
As the seniors say, the results are not impt,
it's the process that is the most impt! :)

SILVER IS WHITE GOLD!!!

2009-05-01T12:30:00.000+08:00

SYF and SOP yesterday.
Sad... We Cried...

PL Handbells got a silver.
Broke the record.
Sad...
Most of us cried.
Til our make up was ruined.
On the bus,
you can hear our stifled cries.
Despite our teachers comforting us,
cheering us up.

How can we get a silver?!?
Our sch has been famous for handbells
and now the gd reputation is ruined!
How can we do this?
From a gold with honours to a silver!
We dropped!
It's as if we've just committed suicide!

This is so embarrassing.
When they announced the results,
most of us cried.
There were no GWH for handbells this year.
Highest is Gold and lowest, silver.
RGS and SCGS got gold.
and to think we got a silver.
Met wen qi and michelle there.
They changed quite a lot.
esp michelle. And i must say that
SCGS played very well.
RGS was ok.

On the bus, iris called.
I was too sad to tell her the results.
And her cuz told her in the end, so oh well...
Then the sec 3s were crying at the back of the bus.
Ran out of tissue. Haha.
By the time we reached sch,
our faces were red.
And our make up were gone.
People rushed up to ask abt results
but we refused to tell.
We're too disappointed in ourselves.

Then we hurry touch up and
rushed to the concert hall for finale rehearsal.
And ms loh announced our results to the others.
Making us cry again, and ruining our make up for the 2nd time.
We just cooled down and she said it again. Sighs...
But unexpectedly, the other performing arts grps
cheered for us.
We were touched.
Thanks for the support.
But so sorry that we let all of you down,
not getting a GWH back for the sch.

Anyways, SOP still went on well.
We played as if we got GWH.
Enjoyed ourselves on stage,
and had fun in our holding room. Haha.
And thank you, helpers,
for helping us set up the tables, cushions and skirtings.
And bringing the stuff here and there.

Ya. Oh well...
What is over is over...
Shan't think about it anymore...
Just try to cheer up...

ASAI APPENATO, DOLOROSO, DUOLO, LUTTUOSO, TRISTEZZA

2009-04-07T23:32:00.002+08:00

2009-04-07T22:55:00.005+08:00

Carry out a random act of kindness, with no expectation of reward, safe in the knowledge that one day someone might do the same for you. -- Princess Diana

It's singapore kindness week!

It started on 5 April. :)

The Singapore Kindness Movement (SKM) aims to

encourage Singaporeans to make a positive commitment to gracious living

through simple acts of kindness in their daily activities.

I think the SKM logo is cool.

The strokes and ovals depict two people -

one who does a kind act and the other who receives the kindness.

The brushstrokes convey spontaneity and combine to present a heart.

Red symbolises love for mankind and

green represents appreciation for the

environment, tolerance, creativity and consideration.

So everybody do a kind act today and

make kindness your cup of tea! Haha...

~ It is the little kind acts that are remembered, so keep on being kind.

~ Kindness is when you give everything to anyone who is in need and not expect anything in return.

~ To be able to practise five things everywhere under heaven constitutes perfect virtue - gravity, generosity of soul, earnestness, and kindness-- Confucius

2009-04-01T22:47:00.000+08:00

Oh my god.
April Fools day.
Got tricked by ms lee twice.
She must be damn happy. Haha.

During SS,
the last few mins,
she gave us this psychometric test
which she claimed that
it's a test and the sch needs the data soon.
She gave us 8mins to do.
And everyone one was franctically doing the test.
At the end,
ms lee said gotcha and told us that it was trick...

Then during eng,
she gave us a spelling test
which "will be 5% of our CA2"
And she gave us 10 words.
And guess what?
The first letter of each word
when put together,
forms the phrase,
April Fool!
Got tricked again...
Sighs...

2009-03-27T23:03:00.002+08:00

SPORTS DAY TODAY!!!

Had fun.
1st time helping out.
My duty was at the refreshment.
But nothing much.
So went to help out at the Milo van.
ohohohohohoh.
Speaking about milo,
let me tell u a narrative story.
The title is a day of a life of a milo mixture.
Is it mixture? Ai ya. Something like that lah.
Morning for breakfast,
i drank warm milo.
Then at the stadium i drank room teperature milo.
For lunch, i drank ice milo.
Haha.

The job at the milo van is fun. :)
i had to direct ppl.
Shouted until i think i'm losing my voice.
And i got sun burned.
Damn tired now. =.=

I'm so happy.
Cos LEE finally won something.
And LEE is NOT the last. :)
Came in 2nd! :)
Together with Archer.
Chew got 1st. Again.

After sports day,
we went for prac.
The score is changed again.
But we learnt it quite fast.
The previous version is so much nicer.
The new version is quite boring with
no "fireworks" to brighten up the sky.
Haha. That's for bass. Haha.

Ok. That's all for now.
I'll really very tired.
Shall go sleep now.
Good night! :)

2009-03-19T22:36:00.001+08:00

I'M MAKING THIS VERY CLEAR!
I DON'T HAVE A BOYFRIEND!!!
EVERYBODY TAKE NOTE AH.

This is a big prob.
That day during farewell,
i was talking to my friend(gal),
then a lot of ppl say i'm talking to
boyfriend, cos i talk for damn long.
Tell them how many times already.
Ai yo.

Then after that,
yesterday i was talking to my bro
on the phone. Also talk for quite long,
then a friend asked me,
talking to ur boyfriend ah?
OMG. I don't have boyfriend.
Only 1 bro, can?

Please lah.
I never really interacted
with guys in my life.
Besides tuition.
I don't even talk to them lah, pls.

Speaking about guys,
on wed, i was playing
badminton with my bro
after i came back frm prac.
At the void deck.

Then my neighbour came down.
A pri sch guy and his cuz who is in sec sch.
Then we started playing duo.
After awhile, the younger kids pulled out.
They went aside and chatted about DM.
Leaving me to play with that guy!
Stupid. I felt so stuppid.
I never played badminton with guys
beside my bro before. OMG.
The feeling is damn odd. Haha.
Anyways, i juz continued playing with him
until the kids joined in...

Feeling stupid...
Mini-SYF is tomorrow.
I think the seniors will come.
Haha.
Spending the whole day in sch.

Although it's the March holidays,
i dun even think it's holiday.
I have something on every single day.
What kind of holiday is this man???
i still need to find time to do maths paper 1
which requires 3/2h straight to do.
But everyday by the time i reach home,
it's super late.
And chem project is another headache.
PW another one...
ARGH!!!

The march holidays is...
to rephrase it,
Term1 Week 11!!!

2009-03-17T22:42:00.002+08:00

heys,

i'm back.
Sec 4 farewell today.
Got soaked to the skin.
Thanks to some people who
splashed water at me.
Thanks man.
But i had fun overall. :)

This march holiday is like
not even holiday.
Every single day got something on.
Don't even have time to
do PW and chem project.
Die lah.
School repoen,
never do hw
teacher will just come after us.
Got SYF pracs wat.
Who so free do holiday hw
everyday, ppl want to relax
also cannot.
Sighs...
I guess we just have to
juggle our time
between cca and homework
and stuff.

I just read my cuz's blog.
She said she have to write
a compo titled, the worst day of my life.
I guess, if i'm writing the compo
as a diary entry,
i'll just cry as i'm writing it.
I'll write about my biggest failures
in my life.
The day i received my results
and my feelings.
Sad lah.

Oh well,
i guess i just have to
learn how to let go,
and move on.
Stop harping on the past,
let go and move on bravely.
Think of the bright side of life! :)
Sadly, there's no bright side of this.
(That's to me...)

2009-03-13T23:14:00.002+08:00

I feel like a failure.
What's with the sudden drop of grades?
i cannot take it.

I think i've let my parents down.
I don't know how to face them.
With my grades.
How should i react when i see them?
Smile and greet them?
Sulk and moan gd morning?
Or hide in my room?

I think i'll just hide in my room.
Crying.
They put so much hope on me.
Wishing that i do really well in my studies.
They bought me so many things to encourage me.
A study table, a cupboard to store my books,
a new phone, etc.
They bought so many books to help me.
Guide books, assessment books,
o level books, etc.
And yet.
AND YET!!!
I let them down with my v. poor grades.
How can i do this?

This is not right.
I should be doing quite well in my studies.
Why is there a sudden drop of grades?
Huge drop?
I can't seem to face the reality.
I was wishing that all these is a nightmare.
It can't be true.
I can't be doing badly.
I must meet my parents expectations.

I think getting a scholarship is a dream that
will never come true.
There's no more hope.
I feel like giving up.
I feel suppressed.
Scholarship is what my parents
hope i'll get.
I'm so sorry,
mummy and daddy.
But i'm getting stupider and
can't fulfil that wish of yours.
Scholarship seems to be getting further and further,
out of my reach.

I don't even have hope
of getting the merit bursary this year.
No hope.
It's all over.
I'm a failure.
There's nothing i can do.
My intelligence stopped here.
What can i do?

I feel like i'm losing evrything.
From my time to my As.
Almost everything.
Oh man.
Is everything really gonna end here?

Crying myself to sleep...

2009-02-25T22:43:00.002+08:00

Somehow i'm feeling really tired inside.
It's like all my troubles and stuff are bottled inside me.
And there's this cork at the mouth of the bottle.
Which prevents the troubles and worries to leave.
I can't remove this cork.
It's too tight.
Who can do me a favour and
remove this cork?

I feel like everything's suppressed within me.
All the troubles, worries and stuff.
I can't seem to let them go.
It seems to be the "doings" of the cork.
Can someone just help me remove this barrier?

During contact time,
the teacher told us not to be sad or depressed if
we didn't get the results we want,
esp sciences.
But tell me, who wouldn't be sad if she doesn't do well?
Whatever she said seems to make sense
and comforted us a little.
It's true that we shouldn't be too sad if we didn't do well
and we should work harder after that.
but, some stuff are really too difficult and confusing.
The teacher seems to hint us that we've done
quite badly for our sciences CT.
Oh no.

It'll really be a great blow for us.
For people like us who are sort of
used to getting good grades.
With the sudden drop of grades like,
from A1 to say, C5?
Drop of 4 grades!!!
I'll just cry!
Although the teacher say don't
expect our marks to be like our sec 2 sciences marks
which is like , As?
So we should be mentally prepared
for the "worst".

The teacher said that she knows that
many of us feel like giving up. (How she know?)
And this includes me.
I'm on the verge of giving up.

Sometimes i wonder,
have i made a wrong choice?
Am i suitable to be in 3A1?
I don't think i'm smart nor talented.
So what am i doing in 3A1?
Have i entered into the wrong class?
I'm practically failing my sciences
and screwing up my SPAs.
Do i deserve to be 3A1?
Maybe i will be better off in combined sciences classes?
I feel stressed up in here.
Stressed up to the extent that i
barely can breathe.
I need CPR.
But i shall pull myself together.
I shall work harder for the next term.
Jia you! :)

2009-02-20T23:12:00.005+08:00

I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!
I really can't!!!

It's too much for me to bear.
Too much for me to endure.
Too much for me to go through.

Why is it like that?
How can it be like that?

I'm in a state of depression and all kinds of mental struggle stuff.
Stressed up.
Common tests are horrible.
I'm just gonna fail everything.
SS and geog are stil ok.
E maths is a little bad.
Music's bad too. I screwed up.
SPA's super horrible.

AND!
the sciences today are
horrible, terrible and vegetable!
And in addition of my bro's version,
can go sell combi rice!
Argh!

the 3 sciences are the main part of my whole studies for these 2 yrs!
I think i'm just gonna fail all 3.
Adn A maths.
The log thing, i still haven't got the hang of it.
Die!

Why is it all like that?
I cannot take it anymore.
I just want to give up and collapse.
I want to break down.
But i can't.
Not now.
Not in the middle of CT period.

If i ever live to see the world after 2 weeks,
it'll be a miracle.

ASAI APPENATO, DOLOROSO, DUOLO, LUTTUOSO, TRISTEZZA!!!!!!

2009-01-22T23:08:00.003+08:00

Hi!

I'm back.
Life's been quite stressful lately.
This week i've been sleeping v. late.
Like 12 midnight.
Today no homework so i can catch a breeze.
haha.

Today's my chinese birthday. :)
Was like blur when i got to sch in the mornng.
Damn tired. Not tired physically but mentally.
Anyways, the day started off with tough maths.
And not to mention, 2 tough maths quiz questions.
Then it's HCL.
Wrote 1 1/2 pg for compo.
Dunno why, usually write a lot one.
Then teacher scold. Have to add more stuff.
After HCL was break. :)

So the day started quite badly.
Then it was SS. Still ok lah.
After that, eng.
Got eng speech test.
Not enough time to write speech lah, ms lee.
But i somehow managed to complete it.
Haha.
Then ms lee say i never pass up commonwealth,
want to have tea with me.
I very busy one ok. What have tea.

Next period's chem.
Learnt seperation techniques and stuff.
After chem, have maths.
Mr lim taught congruencey and similarity.
Speaking about that, he got cheated. Haha.
He didn't know that the topic was taken out of our quiz topics.
Haha. And when we told him about it, he seems hurt.
Haha. Maybe we'll find him at Sakae soon. Haha.

After mr lim's maths lesson, i had prac.
Played song of the flowers. Yay.
And i get to play my old notes. :)
But i got seperated from my dear F anf F#6.
Sad. I felt so lonely w/o them...
Nevermind.
Then at first they were saying we're joining SYF.
Towards the end of prac, we decided to quit it.
Sad. But nevermind. We're going INTERNATIONAL.
Australia! Here i come! :) (If my mum allows me to go...)
One of the best things of today is Amanda hugging me.
That really helps you know.
I was mentally tired and stressed up.
With that hug, i felt a little more better.
Thanks a lot, Amanda! :)

When i got home after prac, my mum dragged me into my room.
She bought me presents! That's the 2nd best thing.
She bought me a set of musical notes the jewellery!
From mini toons. Love them.
And a DIY towel(i dunno for what)
And a pair of shoelace.
And a packet of gummy sweets. (which i can't eat til i take off my braces)
Haha. Love my mum lots!
Thanks you, mummy! Love ya! :) <3
(this post cannot be seen by my dad. Haha.)

Ok. That's all for now.
Got to conduct sec 1 LIVE lesson tomorrow.
Going to prepare the stuff now.
OK. Bye. :)

2009-01-06T22:44:00.000+08:00

Happy new year people!
I'm super tired.
Sec 1 orientation ended today.

I had fun.
Esp the third day.
Very fun.
Taught the sec 1s fun cheers like the shark one and the dance one.
And the chewy chewy chewy om ba ba song.
Sang too mny times til it's now stuck in my head.
The school's theme song also. Haha.

Had a lot of fun and learnt lots of stuff.
Next event, CCA fair on fri.
Wonder what song we'll play.
Haha.
K. gtg. byes.

2008-12-28T22:36:00.000+08:00

meant to post pics of my trip to hong kong.
but my laptop crashed. Sad.
will post them after my laptop's repaired.
and when i'm free.
School's starting soon.
Don't want to go...
Haha.

Happy new year! :)

2008-12-07T21:52:00.003+08:00

Heys,

I'm back. From HK.
It's super fun.
Went to disneyland.
Enjoyed myself there.
Ok. Let me describe my trip there.
But let me warn ya first. This post will be super long.
Haha.

OK. I went to the airport on monday.
Shopped around. I mean, window shopping.
took some pics with mickey there.
At terminal 3.
Ironic right?

Going to HK disneyland already
still take pic with mickey at airport.
Haha.

Ok. Then we board the plane.
Dinner's included.
Guess what we had?
Actually, i sort of forgot what we had.
Bread, drink, fish, vege, salad(i guess),
ohohohoh. And Kings ice cream!
Yum. Haha.

And i watched boys over flowers on board.
By the time we reached HK,
it's like, 10plus.
Then we went to get our luggage.

Talking about luggage, I tell you,
my luggage is new one ok. And it's pink.
When i took my luggage, I found a lot of scratches and markings on it!
Very xin1 tong4. And i spent 1/2 hour trying to wash off the marks.
Unfortunately, some can't be washed off.. Aw man...

Ok. Then we went out to get a cab.
The weather there is cool.
Unlike singapore.
The weather there is like switching on the air con in SG.

We took the cab to Kowloon Hotel.
We stayed there frm mon midnight to fri morning.
But the room is quite small.
Got bathtub. Haha.
Anyways, i was too tired so i took a short bath and went to sleep.

Next day, we went to the peak.
Took taxi up.
Actually there's a tram up.
But it's diagonally 45degrees.
Scary.

It's cool and windy there.
At the peak.
Walked up the peak. And down.

Then went into the shopping centre.
Into the souvenir shop. And came out empty handed.
Stuff too ex.

Then we ate lunch. After that we went back.
Then we went to the ladies matket and temple street.
Took the MTR (like SG's MRT)

A lot of stuff there. It's like our night market.
There can bargain.
So singaporeans(no offence but aunties) can go there to express their flair for bargaining.
Haha.

We walked for very long then go back.
By the time we reached the hotel, it's super late.
And cold.
Anyways, i was very tired.
And to think i still watched obama's talk til past midnight
and my dad chased me to sleep. Haha.

The next day, we went to wan tai xin temple.
To pray.
Then we went to a nearby shopping centre.
Bought some tidbits, sweets.
And my mum bought some chi herbs stuff.

Saw some HK students.

Their uniform are different from ours.
Obvious. Haha.
Anyways, the girls, their tie,
they tuck the tie in their pinafore.
Like what we would do when we have art on
mondays and we have to wear our sch tie.
Ya. Looks odd. Haha.

And the students there,
their sock wear high high one.
When here,
we're trying to keep our socks as low as possible.
Haha. How different.

After shopping, we took the MTR to sha tin.
The nearby shopping centre.
Outside the shopping centre is snoopy world.
took some pics.
snoopy's cute. Haha.
We ate crystal jade there.
Quite cheap u know.
And the food's nice. Haha.

On wednesday, we went to shenzhen, china.
Took MTR to lok wu and went thru the customs.
Oh. And we have to fill in this arrival and departure card.
And behind the departure card,
they addressed foreigners as ALIENS!
Haha. So we were aliens when we go to china. Haha.

Anyways, we went shopping at the shopping centre there.
Can bargain for the stuff too. Haha.
But it's real scary there.
Once the people dragged u into their store,
it's hard to leave the store w/o buying anything.
And they will pester ya.

Another thing is that
people are allowed to smoke in the shopping centre.
Everywhere we go, we'll always face some smoke.
I think i'll die of 2nd hand smoking if i really spend the whole day there.
We bought stuff there, after bargaining of course.
I shall not tell ya the scenerios of my parents bargaining.
It's just, quite scary, the whole thing. Shall not say anymore.

Anyways, we bought stuff like handbags, a wallet, shoes, socks
and almost an iphone.

When we were tired,
we decided to go back to HK.
After the scary chasing and smoking there.

Oh. Did i tell ya about the no U-turn sign?
There's this no U-turn sign at the arrival hall there.
I was like huh? I thought u-turns are only for cars?
Why ppl also have u turn one. Haha.

On thursday, we went up to the giant buddha.
Took the MTR to Lai Jing.
Then took bus up.
And i tell you,
the driver is like some F1 driver.
Drive until so fast.
And the sharp turns, turn so fast.
And the speed should be 50km/h,
i think he drove til 100 can.
Super fast lah.

We drove past hills and rivers.
Then by the time we reached the top of
the hill, the buddha there,
i felt very giddy.
My bro too.
So we ate some orange peel.
And we felt better.
We went to pray and stuff.

Then we went to eat vegetarian food.
I must say that it's nice.
Haha.
Then after that, we went to this souvenir shop.
Saw this confucius keychain.
My mum almost bought it
but it was too ex.
So never buy. Haha.

Then we went back.
Took the bus again.
But i didn't look out.
I looked down. Haha.
So not that giddy when i got off the bus.
Ya. Then we went shopping in this shopping centre.
Went into shops like nike, puma, new balance and adidas.
But didn't buy anything also. Haha.

Then we went to macs.
We ate ice cream.
Bro ate grape flavour,
I ate raspberry flavour.
And mine is nicer than his. Haha.
Then we went to a supermarket.
We bought 4 bottles of chilli. (do u believe that?)
and some cup noodles.

Oh. We bought 3 cups of hello kitty cup noodles.
But we finished them off on sat.
Sad. Didn't bring back.
It's really cute lah.
But the seasoning is already added inside
And when we ate it, it's super salty
that we kept adding water. Haha.

On fri, we ate the cup noodles for breakfast
cos we're lazy to go out. Haha.
So we ate already then we went out to the markets again.
We ate lunch.
Then we went to the market
bought scarf, 3 of them, some more souvenirs and some stuff.
Bought the keychains for friends and stuff. Ya.
Then we shopped til afternoon.
Then we took taxi to Disneyland.

We checked into the hotel.
The hotel's nice.
Looked grand.
Like some royal family live kind.
Haha.
Then we went to disneyland for awhile.
And had our dinner there.
Walked around the souvenir shop.
We walked around til the disneyland management
"invited" us to enjoy a 5mins fireworks show.
It's really nice.
Using the hologram they gaved us,
we watched the fireworks
and there was some pattern
which i don't think i'll say here.
It's meant to be a surprise.
Haha.

The next day we went to disneyland
and walked around again.
This time, i bought a shirt.
Yay.
After that, we went back to the hotel
to collect our luggage and
took a taxi to the airport.

Ok. I shall stop here first.
I'll continue this another day.
Got to go. Bye. :)

2008-11-25T22:32:00.003+08:00

ok. I'm back.
Cos ms yang will come after me if she knows that i didn't blog for quite some time.
And ruby is spot checking me. So must be careful. Haha.

Almost done with homework. Yay.
Left few more.
Chi compo and eng commonwealth essay.
Ya.

Anyways, the purpose of this post is for my neighbour.
Dedicated to my neighbour.
I know i'm slow. Others did it already. But better late never, right?
Haha.

Ok. Anyways, NEIGHBOUR!
After being neighbours for 8 years, u juz abandon me like that?
You're really a good neighbour.
If you're really transfering sch, can u pls not move house?
I'll really miss ya loads.

Thinking back,
for the past 8 years, we have done a lot of stuff together
and had fun. Those memories just came rushing into my mind again.

For the past 8 years, u helped me wash my corridor once
(cos u wanna see my electric meter after the council installed it)
For the past 8 years, once i was sick in P3, you wrote down every single homework i need to do and what i need to bring to sch the next day in detail, like a diary. ( Although you dun even do that in ur daily life)
For the past 8 years, whenever you went overseas and came back, u'll never fail to buy something back for poor me who can't go overseas that often. ( Nice stuff too. And whenever my dad goes overseas and buys things back, i'll choose some stuff to give ya.)
For the past 8 years, we have been classmates for 6 years. Walked and took bus home together.
(And make up stories and joke about teachers)
For the past 8 years, when we were in lower pri, we often go to the playground to play together.
(Play until it gets real dark before going home)
For the past 8 years, when there's a new album from any singer that comes out, you would lend me the CD. (and i lent u mine too, but it's like, u lent me 10 albums, i only lent u 1. Haha)
For the past 8 years, whenever u have bought the latest magazine, u would lend me.
( i think for magazines, i didn't lend u any... cos u bought every single month)
For the past 8 years, we have gone out together several times and had much fun.
(most of the tim when i go out with friends, i allways go with ya)
For the past 8 years, we have done numerous projects together.
(esp maths. rmb the climate change one? science centre smack smack)
For the past 8 years, we have made many friends together.
(most of them are yours, i'm sort of can't make friends kind, too shy, according to teachers)
For the past 8 years...

Oh my. A lot of memories.
We have done much things together for the past 8 years, and you're abandoning me now?
how can u? i'm so hurt.
Why didn't you study hard for EOYs?
Then you can get into pure science class, and dun need to transfer.

No use saying all this. What is over is over. As my parents say.
Just hope a miracle occurs and u'll stay.
I pray real hard...
Meanwhile, just rmb that u'll always be my dear neighbour
and i luv ya. <3
I'm praying really hard...

2008-11-17T23:02:00.002+08:00

Changed blogskin.
I know it's a bit too early.
But i'm somehow looking forward to christmas.
Half of me wants christmas to be tomorrow,
but the other half doesn't want.

I want christmas to be tomorrow,
so that i can receive many many many presents
which i have not enjoyed for a long time.
But the joy is in giving, rather than receiving.
So i guess, i'll be giving out presents too. :)
Christmas is fun.
Not only we can receive presents,
we can go carolling too.
And eat all kinds of candies.
Haha. My dentist should not see the above sentence
or she'll kill me. Haha...
Decorations of red and green and many other colours.
Orchard road will be decorated with beautiful lightings
which will light up majestically at night.
Then i can go there with my family for late night shopping.
Um... i think it'll be window shopping.
Oh. and enjoy the scenic view.
How wonderful. :)

The other half of me doesn't want christmas to come soon.
If christmas comes,
it will mean a new year's approaching, (which is good though...)
and this means that i'll have to start studying. (oh man...)
New subjects like A maths and subjects that i'm not confident of...
I'm afraid to face them, afraid that i'll fail the subject...
A new year means that i have to face the termly exams again,
and fearing that i fared badly again...

Oh man... zi4 xiang1 mao2 dun4,
dunno if i should look forward to christmas...

2008-11-09T22:05:00.002+08:00

I'm back. From peer lite camp.
It's fun. Enjoyed myself.
Made new friends.
Learnt alot of stuff.
But damn tired.

Excited to do LIVE lessons for sec 1s next year.
So exciting. Haha.
Ohohohohohoh.
And you know what?
I got amanda as my mentor!
Oh my god! I can't believe it!!!
Theng hiang also.
Jeanelle, also known as MSG,
got mabel!
Oh gosh. Ai ya.
Nevermind lah.
Amanda won't do anything to me.
She said she's going to torture TH.
So she won't do much to me. Haha.
Poor TH.
She'll either get a humongous C3 bell,
or stand beside amanda at melody side
and amanda's going to ring loud loud til she goes deaf.
Pity her.

I haven't start doing my holiday homework.
Should start soon.
Got my textbooks for next year.
Should start reading soon.
Got piano exam beginning of next year.
Should start focusing and practicing soon.
Got sec 1 LIVE lesoons to teach.
Should start preparing soon.
Got O level chinese exam next year.
Should start studying and preparing soon.
Feeling very very tired now and there's prac tomoro.
Should go to sleep NOW!

2008-11-01T22:25:00.002+08:00

Finally. It's over.
It's finally over.
My theory exam is finally over!!!
It's playtime! Yay!
But i need to start on my holiday homeworks first.
Still need to do sec 4 express chinese workbook.
And maths project. And clear my room.
And SYF pracs.
Ai yo. So many things.
When can I have a break? Have a kit-kat?

Oh. I think it's almost confirmed.
Going HK this holiday.
Finally going overseas after 5 years.
Haha. Yay.

Oh ya. Back to my theory.
Can finally throw all my theory stuff away.
Yay. Oh wait.
Still must keep.
For O levels music.
Oh god. Still need to study theory.
Anyways, hopefully this time can pass.

Maths project is ok.
Under my "leadership".
Pressing the ppl to do work.
Ya. But now got prob.
Cannot find toilet bowl to experiment on.
Haha. Whatever lah.
Our project is called toiletology.
Haha. Oh.
and yj and i found out yesterday that
19 Nov is World Toilet day! Haha.
And there's this thing called world toilet summit.
1st one is held in Singapore! Haha.
Funny? We were laughing like crazy for the next 30mins
afetr we found out. Haha.
Then we got nth to do and jolyn didn't go so
we ended up taking pics on the mac com
using photo booth til we could go home.
Haha.

Peer lite camp is this fri.
I haven't start packing camp bag.
Have to go for camp after maths presentation.
Izabella and i would be like some crazy person
carrying a humongous bag for maths presentation.
Haha. K.
it's late. gtg.
bye.

2008-10-23T22:30:00.000+08:00

Got back report book today.
I was damn scared. Scared that i won't get into 3A1.
My mum wants me to go to 3A1. High expectations.
I was freaking out.
Iris was before me. When she came back, she was crying.
We were like going to see our fate.
When i saw iris crying, i was like, oh no.
Then, i went to teacher there gingerly.
She started smiling at me and i was like, huh?

Then she said that i got into 3A1, i was damn happy.
Wanted to jump with joy but i controlled.
Then she said she was happy with my marks and
hope that i would do well next year for o levels and the yr after.
Then she said as her good friend, i should go encourage iris.
So i went back to console iris.
She's damn sad. She was crying like dunno what.
Then ruby started crying.
I felt odd. The only one not crying.
Then ruby went out to meet her fate.
And she too, came back crying.

After long long while, all of them stopped crying.
But, i, however, started crying.
Ironic huh? Haha.
I was crying cos my close friends and even my dear neighbour,
all go different classes.
I'm the only one who's going to 3A1.
But i can't possibly give up my chance to go to 3A1
juz cos of my friends, can't i? My mum will kill me.
I was crying cos i'm afraid that i cannot cope in 3A1.

Now that i got into 3A1,
My mum wants me to go to VJC.
Juz now, she told me, she wants me to go to NJC.
Prestigious schools.
Sighs. See what i mean by high expectations?

Now that we're all separated,
we're all sad.
bi jing we spent much time together.
Remember those times we had together.
Those fun moments.
Never forget those moments.
We'll still be together.
In some classes.
English, Maths, HCL and even camp.
We must keep in touch, ok?

Ok. I'm crying again.
Tissue paper?
OK. I gtg.
Writing farewell letters.
Ok. I know i'm slow.
But better late than never, right?
Bye.
Those are tears of joy and sorrow...

2008-10-20T22:17:00.002+08:00

"Failure today is not failure for life."

This is what mrs jacob said this morning during assembly.
I find it quite meaningful.
Thinking about it, although i've failed my theory last year,
but a failure that time is not failure for life.
So, i must study real hard and try my best to pass this time.
This quote shall be my source of motivation from today onwards.

2 more days... to the results. Really hope that i can into my desired class.
Oh. And guess what? I got in for peer lites! Yay!
I'm damn surprised lah. Got shortlisted. Now on probation.
Then got camp from 7 to 8 Nov. Camp in sch.
Hope i can pass the probation.

And mr ng asked the ppl taking o levels music to fill in some form.
Then there's this part, Class in 2009. We're like huh? Our dream class? Haha.
And another part, why you want to take up o levels music? What kind of question is that?
Haha.

Then mr ng said that tomoro got music test. Grade 5 standard. Then someone said that she took her grade 5 theory exam 1 year ago. Another said she took it 2 years ago. Then i was like, I took it 3 years ago! Haha.

ok. gtg now. got to study theory and have to help ruby in some stuff... Bye.

2008-10-08T23:02:00.002+08:00

Heys,

I'm back. After doing 2 theory practices today. Very hardworking. Haha.
Found out my violin results today.
Iris, zi shan and i went to find mr ng after sch today.
Then they refused to call him through the phone.
Oh. And Iris randomly said"I saw something." on our way to the staff room.
Ok. This joke is only understood by the 3 of us.
Shan't say much about it.

Anyways, back to the process of getting our results,
An the end, I called mr Ng and he was like, cannot tell lah.
Then we or rather, me, pleaded him.
Then he relented.
He came out and start flipping throug the results.
I'm so afraid that i'll fail. But guess what?
I passed! I actually passed! Yay!
But it's 5 marks shy of the merit marks. Sad.
I was damn sad that i didn't score a merit.
Sighs... Oh well... I just got to accept it. Can't do much.

Anyways, i've got a message for Sec 2 aesthetic track gals. haha.

Harp ppl: Congrats! All of you passed with distinction! Well done!
Violin ppl: All of us passed! We actually passed! So we can go eat Ding Tai Feng! Yay! Congrats to those who scored a merit. Those who passed, but not a merit, like me, we have done well too, just not as well as those who scored merit. Haha. But, all in all, we PASSED! Haha.

Ok. End of message. Got to go. Getting back EOY results tomorrow. Can I not go to school???

2008-10-03T21:58:00.002+08:00

I may seem to have recovered from the trauma.
But i have not.
My results, failing the grade 7 theory paper.
This scene kept repeating in my mind.
I can't forget about it.
It's my first time failing a theory paper.
I may seem oblivious and forgot about the incident,
But it's always in my mind.

I have to pass my grade 8 theory.
I must.
I have to.
Problem is,
I don't have much confidence.
Not after failing my grade 7.
I'm really scared that i'll fail my grade 8.
I cannot afford to fail.
My teachers, parents and friends have high hopes on me.
I can't afford to fail.
I really can't.

Oh no.
What should I do?
I've really tried my best.
I practiced a lot.
But I still don't have much confidence that I'll pass.
How?

I really must pass.
It's another 27 more days.
1 November.
I have to go to the battlefield.
Will I survive through this fight?
Will I succeed?
Or will I just be trampled on?
Be defeated?
I dunno.
Keeping my fingers cross...

2008-10-01T22:31:00.000+08:00

Heys,

EOYs are finally over! Yay! XD
I think i won't do well for history and physics.
Especially history. And history results will pull everything down... Seriously down...
Die. Whatever lah. Now, i'll just play and play and play. Haha...
And do some theory, start preparing for theory exam.

Today's children day. Very happy. Cause i ate a lot of things that i have not eaten for many many months. Haha. Ate fish and chips(the whole plate, I never ate one whole plate by myself before) and ice cream at Swensens. Then wnet shopping with my mum. Bought a lot of hello kitty and winnie the pooh stuff. Haha. Then went home early cos i have to practice the piano (after not practicing it for 1 whole week), do theory practices and my bro need to study for his exams. Haha.

Ok. Gotta go now. Tomorrow's marking day then actually don't need to go to school. But have CCA, so have to go... So i have to go sleep now. Bye. :)

2008-08-24T22:01:00.002+08:00

I'm still sad. Damn sad... My maths... I'm supposed to excel in maths. AMP student, barely pass maths. What kind of AMP student am I? Am I losing the AMP DNA? Or is the AMP DNA in me denaturing??? I cannot afford to barely pass maths, I have to excel in it! I have to take A maths next year! I'm must really work hard for my maths EOY. To pull up everything. To make up for my lost.

After studying so much for the past few weeks, i'm feeling very tired now. Want to sleep...
But i have to start practicing the violin, prepare for EOY, then prepare for theory exam. And soon, practice for Handbell SYF will start. Sighs... What a busy life... Oh. And after handbell SYF, i'll have to start to prepare for O levels Chinese. Oh my god. When will my busy life slow down? It's like a roller coaster ride. Will I be able to cope and catch up?

I'm really tired. Both mentally and physically. When will I be able to sit down and take a rest???

2008-08-23T21:56:00.003+08:00

Got back some results. Happy with some, and super sad with some. In short, mostly good results, but not good enough, can be better.

Proud of my HCL. Got top in class for the paper and 2nd in class for overall marks. But did not manage to get an A2. Sad. But at least i improved from last term. I'll work harder to get an A2 for HCL next term. Ruby's done well too. Her marks is less than a mark away from mine. I must say that she had done well too! Haha... Jia you, Ruby!

Geog. I finally got an A for geog! Yays! For once! I think i got an A after calculating the marks myself. Should be correct. I'm an AMP student, cannot count wrongly, must have the AMP DNA. Haha...

Bio. I scored an A1 too! :) I scored all As for my sciences. Can take triple science next year if i get another A for science for EOY. Yay! :)

D&T. I finally scored an A for D&T! I actually scored an A! I couldn't believe it when i first saw my grade! I scored a B4 for D&T last year and i actually improved by 3 grades this year in this subject! :)

English. Didn't really do well. But improved from last term. Still a B3. So, ok lahs...
Lit. Ok. Maitained my B. I'm not the can write a lot for lit. kind of people. So ya.

History. Didn't really do well for the paper part. Just passed. Luckily, other class tests pulled my grades up. In the end, I managed to get a B3. Heng. But i think my mum will come and nag at my B grade. Sighs...

Lastly, maths. Sobs... Didn't do well. Just passed the common test part too. My class test pulled me up a little. Managed to get a barely pass B3 mark. My 2nd B for maths this year! I'm so sad. I must work harder for Maths for the EOYs. Hopefully, it'll pull my overall maths marks. Pray hard...

After much hard work, I managed to get good results. But some subjects like maths... Sighs... DOn't want to talk about it. Sad. I want to cry...

Oh. And violin exam's 3 weeks away. I better start practicing. Hope that I can get a Merit. Jia you to me! Just came back from a concert. Was hoping that the concert can cheer me up. But it was not of much help. Never mind. I won't commit suicide. Not yet. Maybe after my violin exam. Haha... Ok. I better go start studying for EOYs. Bye...

2008-08-14T12:34:00.002+08:00

Ok.I'm back. It's IT lesson now. Wanted to study bio. But ruby started blogging about me studying bio and being kiasu. Whatever. haha... 4 tests down... 1 more to go! Yay! Bio! Jia you ppl!

I don't think i did well for my tests so far. Especially history when i finished the paper but the content not well elaborated.

I'm sad. Lonely. Depressed. Stressed up. Oh, and sick. My stead's taking my neighbour away and my neighbour's taking my stead away from me. I feel so hurt and lonely. My brother bully me. Studying so much for the past few days are making me go berserk. Want to break down. I so want to go sleep, play and wateva. I'm sick and don't seem to get any better. Want to get well soon. But i think i'm not going to recover any sooner.

Have dental appointment next mnday. Have to stop eating crackers and sweets these few days. Sad. I don't want to go. The dentist is going to add another metal thing to my teeth.

My brother's piano exam is on 8 September and my violin exam is on 9 September. So coincidental! Haha...

2008-08-08T21:51:00.001+08:00

Hi,
Just wanna share something. I find it quite interesting... Article taken from this guy called Brain Tracy...

It is not the amount of time that you spend at your work or on your relationships that matters. Rather, it is the amount of yourself that you put into the time. If you have gone to bed late, gotten up early, and gone to work tired, you may be physically present for eight hours, but the quality and quantity of work that you can accomplish during that period of time is compromised. You'll achieve only a small percentage of your potential productivity compared with what you can accomplish when you are fully rested and filled with enthusiasm.

In every area of your life, it is the quality of the time that you put into your activities that determines the rewards and satisfaction that you receive from them; this depends upon your energy level.Building and sustaining your energy level is imperative. Since your energy is central to everything you accomplish, you should be very sensitive to things that either build or deplete it.

Keep your energy level high by always looking for the good in every person, in every situation. Seek the valuable lesson in every setback or adversity. Look for the equal or greater benefit that comes out of every disappointment. Be a perennial optimist. Be cheerful and positive. Be helpful and supportive. Be a source of encouragement and inspiration. Be the kind of person everybody looks forward to seeing and talking to.Every success is the result of hundreds, and perhaps thousands, of tiny efforts that nobody may ever see or appreciate. These tiny efforts, sacrifices, and disciplines accumulate to make you an extraordinary person.Everything that you do counts in some way. Nothing is neutral. Everything either helps you or hurts you. Everything either adds up or takes away. Everything either propels you toward your goal or moves you away from it. Everything counts.

2008-07-31T21:52:00.000+08:00

I need a hug. Seriously, i need one. A lot of things have happened these days. Depressed, joyful, ecstatic, confused, urge, tired, etc. Sometimes i wonder why on earth am i on earth? What is the purpose of me being on earth. Not that i have done anything to make an impact on someone else's life. Not like I am going to change the world or do something really that great.

I can't seem to do well in anything. Academic, music, all either just pass or pass the merit a little. Sometimes i really wish that i can succeed and do very well in something. I don't seem to be talented although i am in the first class.

Everyday is like a train rushing to some other places. Always doing stuff. Do homework, revise my work, practice the piano or the violin, cca, enrichment classes, tuition. Not enough time to do what i like or even sleep. I know, we have to manage our own time. But it seems that everytime i arrange my time, it's always for studying or playing the piano. Sighs... Can't i have 1 day, just 1 day for me to do whatever i want?

Sometimes, i feel so tired of everything that i just want to drop off dead, don't want to live anymore. 死掉算了。I just want to drop everything i'm doing and all my worries and go to sleep. When would that day come? Someone hug me before i drop off...

2008-07-29T21:22:00.000+08:00

Hi,
I'm back. Realised that i've not blogged for a week. Must do homework before ms yang yingjia reprimands me for not doing my homework. I'm an hardworking and good girl. Haha...

Performed for the graduand's thanksgiving service last Friday. The violin. Yes, the violin. First violin performance... It was great as i finally managed to memorise my score and play the songs with expression. Haha... We played for the prelude and postlude. A bit odd to play sde to joy for the arrival of mrs lee though. Haha... Then, when the people were singing the school song, mr ng dragged us out. We practiced outside the concert hall. Just as we were going into the hall, my violin died on me! Ah!!! How can it do this to me? It went out of tune. And it's A string, the most important string of the song! I was so sad, depressed and desperate. (Wow... I pass my lit. Haha...) For the next few days, i was really sad. My violin had never went out of tune before! :(
But miraculously, I managed to tune it back with the help of my piano. Haha...

On saturday, i went to watch Singbellz 08. It's great and fun. Mr Ko played a piece on handbells all by himself! So cool! And they played amazing grace using handbells and violin! That's cool too! Oh. There's a duet. Mr Ko played this song with another woman. They looked as if they were dancing when they were playing the song. So cool! Haha... Ok. I know i've been saying that phrase. Haha... Then, the HK embellishment played the song, can't take my eyes off you. I didn't know that handbells can play such pop songs! That's very nice! Haha... I enjoyed myself during the concert. Oh. And i have to write an essay about it... Sighs... Haha...

Today's the last session for the life science enrichment course. So sad. I enjoyed myself during the course. Made chocolate, lip balm and soap today. So fun. Haha... And we practiced the violin for the whole 2 periods of music with Mr Ng telling us that we're playing horribly and that there are 6 more weeks to the exam. Sighs... I promise that i'll practice the violin real hard after this term's common test, can? I miss handbells... Ok. I know this is random... Haha...

Ok. Got to go. Have to study for history comparison and reliability test. Bye...

2008-07-21T22:12:00.000+08:00

"All men who have achieved great things have been great dreamers."
I saw this quote at the MRT station yesterday. Quite interesting.

So, if we dream more, will we become great and successful people? Haha...
So people, keep on dreaming and we will achieve great things in future! Haha...

(I think I've gone crazy. Study too hard and went nocturnal too amny nights already. Maybe cos of that... Haha...)

2008-07-18T21:43:00.000+08:00

Ok. I'm back. I'm blogging cos yingjia says my blog is not updated enough. Look chicken, i blogged. Haha... Went to watch magicbox last saturday. It's nice. This is the first live show that i have ever watched in my life. I have enjoyed myself. If i have the chance, I would want to watch it again! :)

Went nocturnal for every night this whole week. So now i'm like going to fall sick soon. I think. Started coughing, felt feverish. Not a good sign. Next week is a busy week so i can't afford to fall sick. Next tuesday is a very busy day. After violin lesson, i have science enrichment. Then, i have to rush home and go for MEP concert at ACS(I). Friday, I have to play the violin for this graduation night for the last year sec 4s. Saturday afternoon, i have to attend this Handbell concert. Yay!!! :) Can't wait to go for this concert! :)

2008-07-13T08:05:00.000+08:00

Hi,
I'm jealous now, green with envy. PL had launched the Centre of Excellence yesterday and Handbells performed. Yay! They said we'll be playing 3 songs. And i'm playing in one of the 3 songs. Playing trampin. Then, later, they suddenly say don't want to play trampin. So i'm not playing anything. So angry. I hate it when i don't play or play a small part in the song. Sad... :(

But at least i got something to do throughout the 2 hours? Visited the Haig Girls' primary handbells booth, taught little kids how to play the bells, etc. Quite fun actually. But if i had a part to play, it'll be more fun... Sighs... ok. Got to go... Bye...

2008-07-05T22:40:00.000+08:00

Hi,
I'm finally back. Term 3 has started. Ok, I'm slow. I know it started 2 weeks ago.
First week, i had camp and it's real fun! I miss camp! Then, I rushed through the climate change proposal. I even missed cca cos of this! So sad! Now, I'm relieved that it's over. Just pray hard that we'll get into the finals. (Although I dun have much confidence that we will... Haha...)

Second week, which is this week, I rushed through history project, managed to finish it on time. Heng. But i have to miss handbell prac again cos of the maths enrichment at NUS about graph colouring. I must say that this is the first lecture that I actually understand! Haha... Then yesterday, we had this exchange programme with the HK handbell ppl. We had fun. I made a new friend too. Haha... That's all for now. Bye...

(I passed my summary. I actually have many things to talk about ok... Haha...)

2008-06-16T22:09:00.000+08:00

Heys,

I'm back. After 3 weeks. This is the last week of the June holidays. Last week of play. Last week of having the chance of sleeping late. Last week without tuitions. Sighs... It's over in a matter of days and I'll be off to the sec 2 camp. Just started packing the camp bag today. Suddenly realised that i have a lot of things to bring. You'll see me with a big, bulky bag next monday. Why cannot bring soft toy? I wanna my soft toy!

Oh. I went to Malaysia for a day last Thursday. When i got there, my phone could not get any reception! stupid. So i have to stay at Malaysia for a day, trying to survive without the usage the phone. I managed to survive though... Haha... The food there are like super cheap, compared to the prices here. Oh. And i saw this sweet pink colour handbag. I want to buy it but it costs 39.90RM. Then my mum don't want to buy it for me... :( Sad...

I just realised that I have not touched Handbells for a month. Suddenly, i missed it. Sighs... So to cure my craveness for handbells, i started looking for picture and videos of Hnadbells... Haha... Depressed child... Haha...

I've been updating the climate change competition the blog but not this one. Haha... Now rushing through the proposal. All thanks to wye syn, who loves to last minute, i have to burn midnight oil just to complete it. Cos the teacher want the complete proposal by today. Sighs... I'm falling asleep...

2008-05-28T22:51:00.000+08:00

Hi
I'm back. Maths Olympiad is super difficult and challenging this year so I don't know how to do. Nevermind, I'm prepared to just get a cert of participation. Haha...
Today's the learn@1 degree north climate change competition. We ran around the science centre to complete the stations. We managed to answer almost all the questions correctly, but we got 1 question totally wrong. We finished doing all the stations in 2h10min. Quite good but some schools were faster than us... :( After the competition, our teacher treated us to mcdonalds! so nice of her... Haha... Then we went to play in the science centre again... Haha... Oh... I forgotten to say, my neighbour is actually afraid of above ground kind of mrt! Can believe that??? Haha...
Ok. So now we have to prepare a proposal and do a blog for the post event. So we have to start thinking... Think...Think...Think...

2008-05-26T21:59:00.000+08:00

Hi people,
Tomorrow's maths olympiad and i have not start revising what i have learnt during the sessions... Haha... I'll do that later... Anyway, I think it'll be something like last year and I'll just get a cert of participation... Haha... But I still have to try my best...

Today, I went to the science centre together with Wye Syn, Iris and Xin Yu. Teacher gave us a card which let us into the centre FOC. Yay! Haha... Wye Syn, Xin yu and i were supposed to go there to take a look at the route at the centre but iris just tagged along and we ended up playing there... Haha... So fun! Ruby just came back from Mega camp. i feel quite odd with no one smsing me... Haha... Ok. Back to the science centre trip, it's super fun!!! We played all kinds of stuff and iris is just scraed of viruses. Haha... When we went to the virus section, she was tugging me along... But guess what? In the end, she went smacking every single virus she could see! Haha...

Ok... that's all for now. Gotta go! I better go and revise for my maths olypiad... Bye...

2008-05-18T22:50:00.000+08:00

Hi,

I had my piano lesson today. Learnt how to do question 1 of grade 8 paper. Still have homework, but as usual, i'm too lazy to do... haha...

I'm currently suffering from right shoulder aches... Must be the outcome of carrying all the tables and heavy bell boxes yesterday... Shouldn't have carried them all by myself... Haha...

Ok... Got to go... Need to do my maths essay... Oh... and research about Climate change for the geog competition... Starting this tuesday... Good luck to me... haha...

2008-05-17T21:34:00.000+08:00

Hey people,

I'm back... Haha... Just got back common test results... Results not up to parents' expectation.
Haha... I improved in some subjects, some just deproved. Like maths. I have always scored an A1 but this term, I actually scored a B3!!! So angry!!! I cried when i know that my maths deproved so much... I dropped 2 bands!!! I wanna cry!!! My maths grades dropped due to my carelessness... I must work harder next term to pull up my maths grades. My chem this term was ok. At least I scored an A1... Haha... I'm happy for that result... I'm really afraid that I'll get a B for chem... I must get A1 for all science subjects... Good luck for my biology next term... Haha...

Today is the P6 open house. Handbells performed for the reception. We played Song of the Flowers. I love this song!!! Haha... Interacted quite a lot with the seniors today... I even stayed back to help keep the tables, cushions and bell boxes... Quite tired... Haha...

I helped my parents paint my bro's room and clear up after that. Then, i went out to buy dinner. After dinner, i tried to do my maths essay but I just don't want to do... Haha... Lazy... But as the group leader, I have to do something or the teacher will go after me... Haha...

Ok... I had a long day... I wanna sleep... Good night... Zzz...

2008-04-30T22:52:00.000+08:00

Common test is coming and i don't know why i'm here to blog...
I just feel like blogging... Haha... I'm tired of studying... Just came back from english tuition just now... i hate common tests... Makes me fed up and tired...

Feel like banging the piano and playing some crazy song now... But it's almost midnight so i can't... i'm falling asleep in front of the com now... I'm supposed to study... Right... I shall go back to study... Bye... Zzz...

2008-04-17T22:14:00.000+08:00

Just finished running 2.4 km on Monday. I'm so happy that i passed! I actually passed! Yay!
Tomorrow going to run/walk 3.5km at Bedok reservoir. Then after the cross country, have to go back to school. I'm so excited! We're going back to the primary school! Haha... Can't wait to go back! I miss the handbell stuff there... Haha... Like my "dear" F4 which I played for SYF in 2006... We're going to play the Song of the Flowers for this HK guy who composed the song. The song is nice and sweet and I like the third movement, The Ali Mountain...

ok... Gotta go... Wanna sleep... Need more energy to run, walk, play and talk tomorrow... Haha...

2008-04-01T21:57:00.000+08:00

I'm bored... I'm bored... Haha...

I wanna cry!!! My father don't let me go to USA for the Handbell symposium... He promised that he'll bring my family out for holiday during the June and December holidays... I'm super happy upon hearing this because i didn't go overseas for millions of years!!! The most I ever went is like, only malaysia, KL... That's the furthest...

I really want to go to USA!!! HCL people can go to Shaoxing, China in October. I want to go too but I have Grade 8 theory exam in end of October to begining of November, around there and they are going to China at like, 25 October. So, again, I can't go... Why am I so unlucky??? I missed a lot of trips already. The P5 Beijing trip, this USA trip and the China one... Although it's 3 trips, I still think it's many!!! Ahhh... Sob...Sob...

Sports day

2008-03-29T22:13:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was sports day... Lee hose did not win anythnig as usual... Haha...
Chew house won the overall championship again... Sighs...

I represented Handbells and took part in the cca race. Jeanelle kept saying that she wants us to get disqualified. She has no confidence... We had to do the caterpillar and some tying the legs thing... We took off our shoes and the track was super hot that i was jumping around...

When the race started, I just tried my best to move faster while jeanelle and the rest were lagging behind me... Finally, Handbells managed finished the race and emerged 3rd! Woo! Yay! So happy.

We got blisters due to the hot track and once we had completed the competition, we rushed towards the St John's section. Haha. NPCC, who came in first, got there first. Some guzheng people was even bleeding! Pity them... I suffered a few blisters which were very painful and iris, yee tin and ruby treated me like a patient the whole day when we went out to do our history project... They wouldn't let me carry any things on my left hand especially and even made me put on a plaster when i think there's no need to! Haha... Thanks for the concern... Glad to have friends like you all... :)

In conclusion, I am proud to represent Handbells and those blisters I suffered were worth it as we came in 3rd and above all, I hope that Handbells will continue to strive for the best in future!!! :) Haha... I feel that my english has suddenly inproved or something... Haha.

2008-03-22T18:39:00.000+08:00

Yay! My blog is finally done! So happy!
All thanks to my neighbour!
My neighbour rox and she's amazing! Haha...

2008-03-17T21:54:00.000+08:00

Long time didn't post and the blog is so dead...
Should i just delete this blog and create a new one since there's so much problems???

Term 2 has just started and I am quite happy. Time really flies...
Taking Chem this term, don't know if i can pass with A1. Last year scored A2. Must work harder... All 3 sciences must get A1 then can take triple science. So stressful... Maths also must get A1... Still not sure if i should take music for O levels... I lost a lot of confidence for music after I failed my Grade 7 theory... Still agonising about it. How can I fail? I never fail before... Ahh!!!
Must work harder for Grade 8...

Academics aside, CCA is ok. Had Sec 4'07 farewell last week. Played games and bonded... Handbells going to US! I wanna go but considering that i didn't do well for CA1, i really don't know if i should go... Seniors are encouraging us to go... I really want to go, but i'm afraid that i won't do well for my CA3. Because the day we're coming back is near to common test dates...
I'm confused!

Just finished doing my chinese blog that the teacher asked us to do... So tired... Want to sleep... Good night! Zzz...zzz...

2007-11-15T22:41:00.000+08:00

I went for the bizworld competition at Singapore Poly today. So many things not allowed in. Scotch tape, staple, hole puncher, double-sided tape and not even correction tape! So mah fan. And my "dear" neighbour suddenly back out and spent the day sleeping at home i think. And now everybody pass me those things that belongs to her. Who ask me to be her kind and good neighbour?!? Whatever lah... Back to the Bizworld, ms quek took all our not allowed to bring stuff and went shopping. Very funny.

We had to make some stuff related to the school. We decided to use the school vision. An outstanding school producing women of fine character. At first we thought of making a book holder which works like the music stands but we decided to use our old idea of making a football field which ms chan say is very creative during our PW lesson. Haha.

We sold the football field at $15 each and $3 for a game. Still got souvenir. We sold 4 sets and left 2 sets. We spent so much time and effort doing it. But in the end, we did not win. So sad. Clementi Sec won. Suprisingly, Temesek Sec did not win it this year. None of the PL teams won. Sad. However, if given the opportunity to go for that competition again next year, I will most likely join again. :)

2007-10-26T21:03:00.000+08:00

It's the holidays! Finally! I want to sleep til very late. I am super tired. Tomorrow got maths presentation. We have not thought of how to apply the formula. Jing Rong say that she have thought of it but I am not sure whether is it crrect... Hopefully it is... Today, those seniors who presented were good and got praises from the mentor and the teachers. I think they will faint when they see our presentation... Haha. Maybe... I have no confidence...

Got back the report book today. I maintain my position in class but my parents were screaming at me for getting a "C" for music. They say that I am in Grade 7/8 and I should not get this kind of marks... And asked me why my neighbour, ruby, bear and chicken get As or Bs. That's because I took the aesthetic track one, they are took the normal music test. The form teacher said that she can see that I am good in maths and science. And my mother say I have to do better in my languages. She say I have to go for tuition next year for English, Maths and Science... I hate tuitions! But they will help me get higher marks so no choice...

Next Saturday have ABRSM Theory Grade 7 Exam, very scared...

2007-10-14T22:19:00.000+08:00

Founder's day performance was ok. Just that I stand on the high heels for too long. Very tired. And no dinner was provided. We only get to eat Hello pandas. And the ren 2 was standing directly in front of me for the 2nd song. So bad... How can she do this to me??? After the service, we found an extra bell, D4. And I have to run after the primary school ppl and ms ho. ( In my high heels.) Then, I still have folllow them to the primary school. The worse thing is, the teachers cannot open the music room door. So I just pass the bell to them and ran back to the Secondary School. Very tiring. Almost died. I did not eat much you know... I ate Nasi Lemak in the morning and a pear in the afternoon and 1 packet of Hello Pandas... Then, when I finally get to change out of my costume, I was so glad... Haha...

Today, I received my ABRSM practical results. It is unbelievable! I can't believe it! Oh my god! I actually passed! I thought I will fail! I am so happy! I actually passed a merit! I scored 124! Unbelievable! My 2nd song is the best... 28/30. So happy. The examiner say I have the distinction potential... (Still did not give me more marks?!?) Super happy lah... :)

2007-10-06T21:16:00.000+08:00

Wow, yesterday's handbell practice is sure fun! Next wednesday got full dress rehearsal for founder's day. The best thing is, next thursday got free ice-cream treat! Yay!

Today I went for chinese tuition and the teacher said that I have slimmed down. I was like, huh? Really meh? She said because I put on braces then cannot eat a lot of things that's why I slimmed down. I was thinking, I only did not eat hard stuff what... But when I thought that I have given half of my lunch to my neighbour yesterday, maybe like that lor... Cannot finish, that's why. (Or maybe because those bad ppl bully me change my place, make me sit in the direction facing HER. No appetitie or got pressure that's why...)

2007-10-03T21:54:00.000+08:00

I have not blogged for very long. I am very very busy nowadays although there are only enrichments this term. I am really going crazy with maths. My head isfilled with big maths problem related to the project like, how to apply the combinations or permutations formula in the experiment??? How do you match Rh blood types to get the baby's one??? Ahh... I am going crazy. And we only have 2 weeks to complete the whole project including the presentation to the principal.

Today, I finally put on my braces. I chose blue, and I will choose pink next month. The braces is pushing my teeth. Can feel A lot of pressure. I have MC for tomorrow so I very happy. Haha. But I am going to school tomorrow anyway... May skip PE.

Monday is childrens day but we also got holiday. Yay! Then, next week still got free ice-cream. Remind me of primary school. Got one year give free Haggen- Dazz ice-cream. Yum. But now that I put on braces, I cannot eat a lot of things like poptato chips, sticky sweets, chewing gum, etc. So sad! Today YingJia and Wye Syn bought potato chips and I actually did not take any from them. And I only know the horrible truth after I put on the braces. I so regretted not eating some of my neighbour's potato chips today... :(

2007-09-22T21:06:00.000+08:00

I went to the dentist today again. Have to extract 3 teeth. I have to suffer the painful ordeal. Actually it is a little bit pain. The dentist inject my teeth with anethestic until the whole of my left part of the mouth is very very numb. I cannot even feel myself touching my lips!

The dentist used a tool which looks like a screwdriver and some forceps thing to extract my teeth. I can feel the tooth detaching itself away from the gum. Quite pain. Luckily, there is this nurse who held my hand throughout the extraction. She kept telling me to breathe in and out. She comforted me and she kept saying, "A bit more. A bit more. It is coming out." Now, there 1 big hole and 2 small holes in my mouth. So sad, I cannot eat properly. Next week need to extract another 3 more teeth, wonder how am I going to take another round of painful extraction...

My mum cook myjo noodles for me when I go home. But I have to wait until it is cool because the dentist say I cannot eat hot stuff today. And I have to eat painkillers too. I think the painkillers are not so good because I still feel a little pain in the afternoon. I was doing my tuition exam then suddenly got sharp pains, like pressure acting on it. And I have to use the straw to drink water for the whole day. Desmond laugh at me, saying that I am a baby. The best thing is, he think I cannot talk so he purposely irritate me. I shouted at him and he got a shock! Haha. So funny. He did not know that I cannot talk only when I am putting on the gauze. Haha. Serve him right. :)

Innovation Week

2007-09-21T21:26:00.000+08:00

Innovation Week- Have to make products. We made some scrapbooks although I think it is too original, not really special. However, I think that our product is a success. Very good, ok? As the vice-CEO, I want to thank the group members for their hard work. Xin ku la...

Today, handbell is super fun lor. Although we have practice for 4 hours. We played To god be the glory and Rondeau. And because of my note D7 for the first song, ren 2 have to run around the school to find my note. Haha. Thank you for running around just because of my note. Hee hee. And one more thing, do you all noe that it is ren 3's birthday this Sunday? Unbelievable, right? Wonder how old? By the way, handbell is having a BBQ party in December organised by the handbell instructor. So excited. But I cannot eat a lot because of my braces... So sad. I shall eat potato wedges then...

Thats all for today. I wanna sleep... zzz...

My 1st post

2007-09-19T20:49:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl,

Today I went to the dentist and she put some metal stuff in between my teeth. So scary. But it was not really that pain. This Saturday I have to go and extract 3 teeth on my left. I am scared of the pain although the dentist said that it will not be very pain.

Anyway, I noe it is a very shocking news to my neighbour that I want to create a blog. Haha. She thinks that I am really a guai guai nu like mao han said. Ok, here I want to say a very big Thank you to my "dear" neighbour for helping me to create a blog and thinking of a URL( with YYJ). Thank you to those who helped me with this blog. Haha. Have to go now! Bye!

*My teeth hurts...